Tuesday, July 5, 2011

omgaaaaaaaaaaah

Lalalala this bitch so tired. constant work. workahaul.

im not complaining

i chose this

i love it

but foof im tayred

hey hey

dis moi un mot, "bonne courage" ou quelque chose, eh?

Monday, July 4, 2011

Just go read about Patience.

Time, time, there's never any time
I guess with these new wins I got upgraded
this role:

M------ D------:26/28, blonde, beautiful, sexy, graceful and stylish, "Bardot meets Deneuve." M------ is an artist plugged into a sexy Paris avant garde. She is also one of the top assassins in Europe - cold, efficient and deadly - working under the codename 'Noir'. M------- is a survivor of WWII, a woman who experienced horrors and traumas that forged her into 'N---'. She embraces life and lives it to the full, but always on her own terms. Deep down M------- is all about control - of her environment, people and herself. She can make you feel like the only person in a crowded room, and then, when you are, kill you without compunction. SERIES REGULAR (1) (In addition to French actors, we will consider Scandinavian, German, Italian, Eastern European actors for this role who are both fluent in English and their native language as well as Americans who are fluent in French, German, Italian, Russian, etc.) Nudity required


I got this on thursday and thought i had plenty of time but i slept through the entire weekend and now its tomorrow morning and i havent even looked at it and theres a ton. just a ton. a ton of fucking dense material. and im jiggly cuz i havent moved in 3 days and just eaten a ton. fuck.
mannnnnnnnnn oh manny

sleeping all day for 3 days leaves you in an unenviable state when you wake up, with the pile of shit you havent done that you have to do that you thought you had more than plenty enough time to get around to

men.

2 dudes in a row just stopped me at the starbucks one to say "you look amazing" and another, from his car "you are incredibly goodlooking... have a pleasure celebrating the 4th..."

??

i look HEINOUS

i have 2 distinct zits

my hair is a gnatty mess

i just slept for like 72 hours in the heat without showering

im in like a baby's onesie

i have no makeup on

ugh its probably just cuz my fat is jiggling

men.

Friday, July 1, 2011

un petit peu du CUPCAKE

yes but its not half bad

i got my bridesmaids dress via fedex wed and just tried it on
its, got an odd amount of material and some strange like, girdle type situation underneath, but, the colors damn good and, its actually KIND of sexy
mostly because the color is very close to my skin color and it looks nude
hahahahaha
and, theyre strapless
and, most who know me know i have a soft spot in my heart for SHORTS, short skirts and dresses, and in this case, i have not only been permitted but basically ordered to take up the hem.... (otherwise believe me, i cant be fucked to go get something tailored. i mean, i cant even be fucked to go be fucked, these days).... so, take it up the maximum allowed 2" I shall, in spite of the fact that due to my proportions it already sits definitively above the knee.
i mean, i just dont half ass things. and that thing, could be kind of hot.

THANK YOU FOR THE GOOD JUJU OUT THERE!

Ohhhh that was heaven...
Oh that was just so night and day....
The venue was beautiful, the crowd was amazing, the keyboard we rented sounded incredible, the sound guy was tops, the audience was respectful and just, no talking, watched, enjoyed, loved, every song, pauses before applauses and then long, long applauses, and it just felt so good.

i felt elated after- not like i wanted to slit my wrists.

which honestly. every preceding show. has been deplorable. just awful. offal.

granted the crowd was 75% strangers (which is better anyway) and only like 12 of our people... the friends of mine who've come to shows and those who haven't, at this point, i dunno, sort of paints a pretty clear picture... god this town is drinking haterade. but the ones who come at this point really just do for the music. with some perspective i realize i dont want people there anyway who are just doing it as a favor (thus expecting one in return), who dont want to be there, who dont like the music even. fuck them. seriously.

these people, this audience, like, they LAUGHED at some of the lyrics, that are really subtly funny... like... THEY WERE LISTENING. and it was so shocking. hah! ah, classy place. all the difference. anyway.