Sunday, July 10, 2011

on solitude--

i know thats probably the name of a thoreau essay, or something, probably a million other essays too.

well this isnt one of those.

sometimes i just need to shut the shit down.

sometimes i just really need to be alone. not doing errands. just playing around. not with anyone either, not with anyone i know...

thats when my imagination goes... goes free... fires up... thats when i can forget myself entirely, forget who i am, my life and my triumphs and my troubles and abandon my fiery EGO...

it drives me crazy and agitated and exhausted. and then, i take the time to shut the shit down. without a clock. without the phone. and then my mood just lifts, poof, magic.

i cant live in constant "reality." because it's not fucking real, anyway. its one lens. and its highly absorbent. maximum absorbency selfpads.

thats why, thats why, thats why. i cant live any other way. i have to lose myself.

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