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Letters to genevieve

fascinating stuff to follow:



On Tue, May 31, 2011 at 8:59 PM, GDC wrote:

Yes, that will work just fine. The important element is explaining data, helping us readers understand what the data are telling you, the interpreter and analyst. Sometimes, graphs can really help with that process. Sometimes, graphs won’t do a thing for you. It’s part of your job as a researcher, as a scientist, to figure out when to use which tool.

Prof GDC



On Tue, May 31, 2011 at 8:10 PM, CVD wrote:

Okay, and if I'm understanding correctly, and I really hope I am-- from your last e-mail, that as this is an explorative, qualitative study, I will not have to contrive any GRAPHS or anything out of my completely insufficient data- which, now, seems like a ludicrous idea, really... but I can just use quotes from my data, like in your paper on authoritative voice, as examples of the difference in formality or politeness... and then refer to past studies as well, to support these observations?
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On Tue, May 31, 2011 at 8:04 PM, CVD wrote:

Yes-- I really have to! Getting the data/interviews was a lot harder than I expected, and now, there's SO much information, so many possible patterns, etc, I just have to stick to a couple aspects that are very similar to existing research and studies, right? Or else it will be completely UNSCIENTIFIC.

15 pages-- seems long until you start writing..... Well, I'd love to read it when you're done!


On Tue, May 31, 2011 at 7:59 PM, GDC wrote:

It’s perfectly all right to cut it down to size and focus on a couple of aspects for the paper. Once you collect data, you often end up with way more to write about than you have time for one semester. At least then you have the choice of what to do for now, to get the semesterly work done.

Am working on my own paper, and have lots of data myself, trying to stick to something that will stop at 15 pages!

Prof GDC

From: CVD
Sent: Tuesday, May 31, 2011 7:12 PM
To: GDC
Subject:

this REALLY is a massive undertaking i undertook. sigh. it's coming though.

christ

i am trying to do this research paper......
the guy downstairs will not put a sock in it one time....
get a fucking rehearsal studio already; i stamped my feet down and he at least turned the mic and amp off....

HOURS

HOURS

of TERRIBLE CRAP

mocking me. kinda mocking me. like this is what you should be doing. but it's bad, so maybe not. and like my song lyrics, there really is a ringing in my ear; i have a migraine. migraine.

SHUT THE F

i need SILENCE. NOW.

Мені шкода, але я пишаюся тим, що американські прямо зараз.

For real.

Error Message 626: WHOOPS

SCRAMBLING to turn this insane data into some sort of conclusion.

Trying to write an abstract.

At a total fucking loss.

it is improbable to be so perfectly unmoving

black magic is the only magic left under this fog

i prefer it

i had a conversation with a succubus i used to sleep with sometimes that fancies herself an artist today

i took screenshots because her energy was drifting away from her like a filter in post production in a horror movie

only it was real

anyway, computers are getting smarter

you always think so

Instant Play

Oh this weekend
While all aparty
I'll be mining data
and drinking soy lattes.

Here's a weird movie you all should watch-- I'm told that horrible blonde actress is a dead-ringer for me.

http://movies.netflix.com/WiSearch?oq=my+normal&ac_posn=-1&v1=my+normal

Now streaming on Instant Play.

Ha!

Alternate Career Paths

Hacker
Actor
Interrogator
Events Coordinator
Archaeologist
Hooker

sitting at the piano
playing
waiting for the next play
waiting for a move.............

HEY

i dont give into peer pressure. like i animals. so i wont trade a steak for a hybrid car. but. worst case scenario is that i do decide to trade, and the waiters accidentally put my MEAT in MY dish cuz they think they know me.

waste of good filet mignon.

and confusion to the vegans.

I stick business cards on your windshield- A Rap.

sup sup sup
i speak ebonix
sometimes t-rex
sometimes pidgin n sometimes patois

jay ponce eh cease her nu????

hey i got ideas in different area codes
i hand out flyers in front of the Mint
i stick business cards on your windshield
i, uh, made that all up
at the Whiskey

hey i used to be in this band
dont you know who i am
yeah that thing that did that thing one time
with that thing
so im gonna give you advice
(and im wearing a tanktop with a truck on it)

i recommend just waiting it out kid
drop off you application at mcdonalds

wendys already got your number
dont call too many times
youll look desperate

and keep at it

life is long

My apologies,

To y'all, my dear cherished Midwesterz and East coast friends who stayed up til 2 or 3 am to watch the videofeed..... I've been apprised it didn't work. :-/

Well a pal here videotaped it...... so maybe I'll post something up here....

As for now, delirious, defatiguable, decomposing, and signing out.....

CvD

O' Opportunity

Ohhhhh I missed you by an hour again.

200+ odd radio djs reviewers bloggers and such, falling into my lap, fresh and ripe for invitation when my show is in 30 seconds.

Such is the way of it.

NEXT time. Next time I'll be on top of it. Opportunity, I'm keeping my eyes out for you every time the sundial budges and I'll come to you your a-knocking already ready, without a hesitation or hem or haw at what to write to introduce myself-------- I'll be there like a concorde jet------- I'll be there in 8--7---6---5---

omg the bureaucratic BULL

text text email email computer explodes explodes all day long sitting in a seat staring down at a phone or computer that wont do a thing right..... KILL ME

like being tipsy too
or a bad actor
on a bad irish accent though

it slips into french with notes of german and all infused in cockney too

enchantee
et a la proche
et la proche peut etre porte a porter

oh nuffa dese? hurrz

fancy funny words
i feel like rip van winkle
if he were green and amphibian.

watch me morph into a bonafide Eccentric

i'm gonna start wearing cutoff gloves on my hands because my fingers are always cold, especially on my right hand, especially around the second knuckle.

Tonight, at length:

6.Discuss some of the factors at work in asymmetical communication, as well as one applied linguistic project involving ‘miscommunications’ in institutional settings.

Ha.

Over the next two weeks: I, like William Labov before me, and going to be asking people questions and recording what they say without their consent. Then asking them the same questions online, as a different person, and seeing what the data says... where this is going, nobody knowing.

Good moves.

Hah I love it! The world didn't end tonight and I've figured it out, and here I was, thinking for just a second there perhaps really WAS an eye in the sky, some spherical corporation sitting on a proxy server in a proximate gallery, judging me. That would be so antithetical to my everything.

But no. My everything is watching everything instead.

Kn to B6

Your move.

schedule

week1
M T W R F

week2
M T W R F

week3
M T W R F

week4
M T W R F

week5
M T W R F

A current a river a tidal a stream

As pictured below (skip two), will also be available streaming, for those of you (yeah you) unready, unwilling, or grounded on schoolnights.

Go to www.goodhurt.com for more information.

Denial (p.2)

Denial ain't just a river in Egypt.

And neither is denial running through me, currently-- or in any other shape of waves.

dreams, memories, reflections

i have had.
the same dream.
for 1 week straight.
7 days.

except for wednesday night when I only slept two hours.

i read somewhere (i've read a lot of places. trains and planes and smoky bars.) that when you're more in touch with yourself, when you're in a better place with your psyche, you remember your dreams more.

it makes perfect sense to me. that's all the id driven, subconscious crap that you normally sweep under the rug, denying its existence, the fact that you need to dust... attack that shit..... (denial ain't just a river in egypt!)

most dreams anyway. some are just wrinkles in time. visions. a glimpse into another time and place from your soul's same perspective...

so i guess i'm in a pretty good place. cuz i remember my dreams clear to the letter.

the face on the milkcarton

oh poor little runaway
ridiculous with her unchanging dolls face
she thinks everyone is watching her
but she only sees herself

but maybe you've seen this face?
this torn up funny sign?
strewn about your least favorite cafes
restaurants
college bars

the post office, the crime blotter, the milk carton, the mirror

the photos you took
your photos
your dreams

tell me how you seek your man
and tell me all your secret spells
and tell me how you like to doubt
my choice that he fell

i know a ghost
can walk through the walls
but i am just a man
still learning how to fall

try to reimagine me
and i'll reinvent myself
still i remember seeing you when
you looked like someone else

i know a ghost
can walk through the walls
but i am just a man
still learning how to fall

if you start doubting me
then i start to doubt myself
you never look through me
cuz i keep those to myself

i know
a ghost
can walk
through the walls

but i am just a man
still learning how to fall

je ne veux pas dejeuner
je ne veux pas travailler
je veux seulement oublier
et puis je fume

Glenn Gould

One of the many dead people on whom I have a massive crush.

FIN

oh who caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaares

who the hell cares

BTW,

do you care?

nah

f it

i miss ballet
i miss farms
i miss lvov
i miss india
i miss listening to radiohead and billie holiday on a train from barcelona to marseilles
i miss playing at a piano bar for a bunch of drunks
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you forever

this is how it works
you're young until you're not
you love until you don't
you try until you can't
you laugh until you cry
you cry until you laugh
and everyone must breathe
until their dying breath

who's my favorite Wort?

St John's is my favorite Wort!
who's my favorite Root?
Valerian's my favorite Root!
Ylin Ylin: Ylang Ylang
Go in in and out with a
Bang Bang

FDA SPAM.

those things F*&# you UP.

hot DAWGS.

self-diagnosis II

symptoms: world in shades of gray, heart in shades of blue, blues progression, malady progressing, suicidality, is not a word, malady malady gray is the world

self-diagnosis: suicidal depression

treatment: staring at the ceiling, noticing a stain, a moth, the oscillating fan

I think I might be done. With this blog.

It's May and I say:

In May, I say:

Don't ever waste your time wishing things were different. Clearly, they are what they are. The Serenity Prayer is almost in order here. But yeah, wishing is fruitless as an old oak tree.

new dawn

i didnt sleep
i went for a scamper
its a new dawn its a new day
and i feel like ive shed some kind of shroud
a fur coat even
its hot and the sun is bright
i write clown music
and write and write

its a new dawn its a new day
its a new life

self-diagnosis

symptoms:

difficulty with concentration, easily distracted
lower abdominal discomfort
restless leg syndrome
hyperventilation, shortness of breath
excessive salivation
cyclothemia

(self) diagnosis: chronic sexual tension

(self) cure: get over it. get over yourself chloe. fuck, genius.

;-)

rabbit hats and fires swallowed

someone gave me the best fucking advice last night.

"you're crazy, who cares, deal with it. :-)" and "st johns wort."

i've taken both.

wonders worked.

i have this incredible magic tool at my disposal. at my fingertips. literally.

this crazy beautiful music comes out. and i tell myself what i've been thinking about.

out it goes, codeswitched, in snippets and rhymes and metaphors and euphemisms and pseudonyms...

all i wanted yes it was magic
rabbit hats and fires swallowed

you're mundane and stuck on tragic
stop the car and let me out right here

im a gypsy punk romantic
freeze right there its gotten out of hand

who here's tipsy, drunk pedantic
stop the car you're swerving off the road


krasivayi zhivn.

its a wonderful life.

on tv.